my LJ is back in action. i'm sort of regretting cheating on it with ms bloggerina. i had some good times with ms bloggerina, don't get me wrong, but it needs to end before it goes any further.

so i'm alllmost done with my junior year of college. i have two more papers to bullshit and then i will be good to go. hopefully i can get one of them done between today and tomorrow. actually that is kind of necessary because it is due tomorrow night at midnight. cool.

i have to go back to westfield tomorrow to get the rest of my stuff. i also have to turn in a paper for TJ and pick up some stuff for him at his old house. i realize i may be being too nice to a guy who was never really extremely good to me but i'm over it because i'm pretty much driving right by his house anyways so its not that out of the way for me at all. should be interesting though, he's gonna have to either come to my house or meet up with me somewhere to get his stuff. yesterday we had a little heart to heart conversation about how his previous relationship just blew up in his face. then he decided to tell me that he considers me his number one bang. good stuff. i was actually really flattered because i feel like people are insecure about their sexual skills and thats one thing that is rarely complimented. so i'm the best sex tj's ever had? cool. he also said i'm the best looking naked. wow. so why aren't we having this mind blowing hot sex every night of our lives, tj? because hes a complete monkey ass tool. maybe someday he'll grow out of it.

i have to go get my hearing aid fixed. eh.

there's leftover pad thai in the fridge from last night's mother's day celebration. i'm pretty excited about eating it.

i'm pretty excited to start work and hang out in boston every day. jimmy's internship is one T-stop away from mine so we are gonna chillax on a daily basis. amanda's apartment is two blocks away so i'm gonna crash there as much as possible. sooo that's cool. ok its 1 p.m and i haven't done anything all day except yell at devlin and think about eating pad thai.

so long! farewell!

i joined a gym today and it feels good. maybe not so much when i wake up tomorrow.

i watched a movie from my MOVIES YOU MUST WATCH list, that feels good too. over the past year or so, i've realized how many good movies i haven't seen, so with the help of some friends i started a list. tonight i watched shawshank redemption, it was really freaking good.

i went out to dinner with my fam tonight at this really nice italian place in downtown nashua called villa banca. i ate chicken and shrimp over linguini with spinach and tomatoes, it was the yummiest thing i've had since tortellonis with nia.

bermuda is soon!

things have been pretty fabulous lately. i'm no longer white as a ghost and this makes me happy, but don't judge me. i visited medway this weekend for laura's graduation and i saw jenny and nicola and kara. it was good to see their shining faces. now i need to see xtie but she's too busy making messes loling all over the place and throwin d's.

today i had orientation for my job, it went pretty smoothly. then i chilled (literally) at lindsay's pool and now i'm home, showered, hungry, and waiting for dinner. who knows what the rest of the evening will bring.

elliott smith stabbed himself in the chest twice and then he died. isn't that like the worst method of committing suicide? how would you do it? its kinda twisted to think about i guess. but there seriously has to be a better way.

i'm hooked on lost and some may say i'm stupid for this (you know who you are) but its addicting and i might as well watch it until it gets bad, right?

i went to a party and got drunk the other night. and for those who know me, they know that this is a rare occurrence (did i spell that right?) for me when i'm home. it was actually fun and i saw a ton of kids that i used to hang out with a lot when i was with good ol' deverwin.

my laptop is making me hot.
signing off!!

summer reading has commenced which makes my life that much cooler. i started reading a book i had originally bought for a class, but we were never assigned to read it. so when i was going through books to sell, i found it and decided it looked decent. its about a bunch of different cases taken to the supreme court concerning race, religion, abortion, basically everything controversial. its pretty good stuff and i don't hate jehovah's witnesses anymore. so that's worth it, right?

i had an interview this morning, i pretty much owned it. i don't even know anything about elderly people and somehow i answered 37 out of 40 test questions correctly. yeah i thought it was kinda weird that there was a test included in the application but i guess they don't want just any jackass working with the community's coveted senior citizens. i hesitated putting mcdonalds down as a previously held job, until the girl sitting next to me asked me how to spell restaurant and she's writing down the same mcdonald's i worked at. she didn't look familiar either which might tell you a thing or two about crew turnover. so i figured working at a law firm for two years balances out working at a grimy fast food place for two years. agreed? so orientation is next wednesday and i'll probably do this job until i start my oh-so-sophisticated internship in boston.

so i went to dunkin donuts with devlin (hows that for alliteration!) and helped him unpack stuff from school. he's still a little punkass, its good to know that some things never change. i came home to take a nap and it was going pretty smoothly until my phone rang seriously 6 times in a row. i swear that only happens when you don't want people to call you.

lindsay and i are getting haircuts in about an hour. nothing too drastic, i've got a good response rate going with my long locks. stfu christie.

word on the street is 90 degree temps this friday. good thing i have friendz with poolz.

might be seeing some medwaynians this weekend due to my cousin graduating college. hollaaaa

as a whole i feel like we've been through a hell of a year. jenny and i were read our miranda rights as we were accused of committing a felony. we went to six flags. sara got a 10/100 combined with a 5-5-50. this is around the time 386 RIPed. we lost kara in downtown springfield for several hours. i got mono around halloween. i swear i hooked up with a gay kid. it took forever to snow. christie tried to beat up me and nicola, resulting in just smashing her cell phone to pieces. kara went to california. nicola went out with garrett and then they broke up cause he went psycho. we said goodbye to our dear lauren ashworth. jenny and christie didn't speak for a long time. sara became a foam monster and tried attacking me while i was driving home from the bar. i didn't speak to her for a long time. nicola and i met the highest girl in the world while waiting for AAA to unlock matt nelson's car. jenny and christie became friends again. we taped nips to our legs on the same night where we looked the classiest we've looked all year. kara and i confirmed our love for emos. i went to my first cool show, actually i went to 3 cool shows. christie got special piercings. i almost got the most emo boyfriend in the world, and i still dunno why it didn't work. nicola printed a million cupcakes. we almost saw dinosaur footprints. we successfully made appearances at five legitimate parties in one night. i got into a 21+ bar without an ID. nicola and i almost died together on the bathroom floor, and proceeded to go in a chatroom afterwards. i smashed up my car. i got stoned on 4/20 for the first time. christie questioned her sexuality. jenny got a boyfriend.

somewhere in between all that, we studied and did mad homework.

today i went on a harbor cruise in boston for my grandparents' 50th anniversary. it was a pretty good time, i always enjoy making fun of weird relatives with my brothers and counting how many times someone comments on either a) my brother's height (he's almost 6'5) or b) how much i resemble my mother. which doesn't bother me at all, i think my mom was a total babe when she was my age. that makes me wanna quote mean girls right here, "so, you think you're pretty?" haha christie i hope you appreciate that cause i never quote movies

anyways. they pulled up in a limo and we were holding signs that said "happy 50th" in big letters. it was fun, i love genuinely surprising the hell out of people. the boat was huge, like four floors and an outdoor deck on top. there were these 4 performers, two girls and two guys, who were wicked tacky and dressed up funny and dancing and singing corny songs. but for some reason i couldn't stop watching them. they were like weirdly addicting, like a corny 'nsync song or something. they sang a slow pretty song for my grandparents and we all stood around them while they danced. it was kind of a moment during which i realized the following things:

a) how can two people still be so smitten with each other after 50 years?
b) i'll never get to do this with my own parents
c) am i ever going to celebrate my own 50th anniversary, or am i going to continue getting bored after like a month into any kind of relationship?

yeah. i teared up a little when they were dancing. my mom did too. i guess all those dumb relatives were right, i am just like her. haha, kidding. kinda.

the food was good and we just so happened to be sharing the boat with a huge party of folks from a church outside of boston. so basically they were all black and hilarious. when the electric slide came on (yes, that cheesy), they all came rushing to the dance floor. it amazes me how every single black person has better rhythm than every single white person. okay that was overgeneralizing but seriously. put a bunch of each race on the dance floor and its quite a show.

tomorrow's mother's day and also my b-day celebration. since when are greeting cards five dollars? f'n ripoff.

salve.

i'd like to start off this update by saying that there are so many things i should be doing instead of updating. but alas, i have an undying devotiong to my livejournal that is unmatchable by any type of academia. blahblahblah

ben folds is one romantic dude.

its the end of the last weekend of my sophomore year. i might not be returning to westfield until next january, which is really weird to me. i feel like i'm just gonna be here forever. which makes me wonder how i'm gonna feel when we're all graduating. its weird to me the different kinds of friendships you can make with different people. for example, i feel extremely close to my friends here because of all the time we've spent together. but i feel extremely close to my friends at home, we grew up together, we know each other's families and have gone through grade school to high school together. although i'm close to both, the two cannot even be compared. its a weird concept to comprehend.

i'm excited for summer. i may possibly be getting the best job ever (yeah we really got lucky! - piebald) and also i feel like lots of other cool things are gonna happen. here's a starter list of cool things:
-5 days in bermuda
-week on chappy
-week in a mansion in falmouth heights (with visits from kerry and sara, ooh yes)
-maine with ker
-my stepsister's wedding
-keith urban concert
-other miscellaneous events that will also rule

i dunno how i'm gonna pull off getting that many vacation days especially with this oh-so-important job i might be getting. but i hope it works out somehow.

this tuesday is my 20th birthday, and i think my momma is coming up. i dunno if she's bringing my brothers or what, but i'm excited either way. i feel really weird about turning 20. i feel like i will never feel as old as my age tells me i am. my external self is aging faster than my internal self. but not even. i don't really think i look any older than i did in high school. aging is strange. shit's whack

i have about 73 finals and 27 papers to write this week. the next time i write i will probably be home (!)

today i watched two movies in their entirety. this never happens. and i'm stuck on this quote that i'm going to share with you, from crash:

"It's the sense of touch. In any real city, you walk, you know? You brush past people, people bump into you. In L.A., nobody touches you. We're always behind this metal and glass. I think we miss that touch so much, that we crash into each other, just so we can feel something."

minus the LA part, i think its pretty relateable (sp?). crash was a really good movie, brings out emotions that you didnt really know existed. thats deep ish i tell ya. i also watched bobby, but i had already seen that and its good as well

this weekend was alright. i almost went home but then i didn't. i think i'm glad i stayed, except today was kinda boring and uneventful and i really need to bring stuff home to make move-out day a little less stressful. ehhhhh i hate thinking about that day, i'm going to be a ball of tears/anxiety/excitement/every other emotion ever created. i'm really looking forward to the summer though

last night was pretty fun, i got crunkstyle with my right hand champ, kara e brooks, and a bunch of other people who are almost as cute as her. i'm pretty sure i hit my head on something, i have a bump on it and i've had the worst headache alllll day. i guess thats the price you pay to have a rockin good time

today i spent all day with jenny watching movies and eating food. its been relaxing and i'm excited to sleep in tomorrow. i miss niapolitan.

ugh. tj is talking to me now and i have lost all motivation to continue writing. until next time...!

the weather is finally amazing and i give it 100% credit for putting everyone in better moods. yesterday was like 80-something degrees and i totally didnt mind getting up for my 9:20 for once. too bad i skipped my 1:40 though :/ we went on an excursion and i ate so much food that i don't know if i'll ever be hungry again. christie made some interesting jewelry purchases, to say the least. i was surprised/relieved that it didnt come out the way i originally imagined. wooo christie! we sat on the side of a river and contemplated the meaning of life. it was refreshing. today is nice too but not as hot. i haven't been outside yet.

ex-girlfriends and ex-boyfriends are the newest weird concept to me. like, do we really ever get over them? and first loves. are we just hurting everyone else that we ever try to be with besides them? my ex-boyfriend is still the person i compare everyone to, and no one ever measures up. i guess i just feel like someone always ends up hurt. and i know that i'm not the only one who does this. its really a mystery to me, like what's the point of breaking up, screwing around with other people, just to get back together with the person you broke up with and completely regretting screwing around? do we actually learn anything from all of it?

anyways...so i applied for an internship position in boston and i'm crossing my fingers, toes and eyes that i get it. i am basically screwed if i don't. my aunt has helped me so much, i need to buy her a teddy bear or something.

i like how i can relate to practically every song by the fray. i want an ipod!

so i have been informally diagnosed with peritonsillar abcess, which are fancy terms for an infection in my throat. its extremely painful, making it difficult for me to sleep and eat. this, for lack of a better word, sucks. but anyways...

today it is rainy and i don't mind it until i have to go to class in about 10 minutes. i want to be able to go out with my friends tonight but i'm not sure how smart that would be with this ish happening in my throat. hmm we shall see.

ok i have to go to world lit now. its been lovely chatting with you